Jehovah's † Garden

Oh God,
make me perfect or killing me directly.

Exactly,
I'm hideous.
I'm vicious.
I'm cowardly,
& I'm also a hypocrite.
I'm not the person who I wanna be 
& even not the person who I was.

Thereupon,
I gonna be crazy,
I gonna be insane,
I gonna be silly,
& hence I lost my control.
I pursue the perfections 
even if it's what made me negate myself.

Ultimately,
I can't stop thinking repeatedly,
I can't fall asleep & gonna be more confusion.
I can't find my way out,
& consequently I decided to forget.
When I had forgetton myself 
& then here I am moreover who don't know himself...